Diary Everyday Burnout A diary of 100 consecutive days in which I discover the bent man within myself. The theme in this performance diary is the journey of finite energy. Burnout just doesn’t happen like that. It comes from far away and travels a long way before striking. The secret source of energy that previously shaped every decision, every leap into the unknown, suddenly seems cut off. Days become empty deserts full of doom, nights create encounters with your deepest fears. This journey humbled me for life. I suffer the weight of the world. Previously, thoughts took me to unreachable light places full of energetic fire. Now I bow my head and feel the heaviness of my body. I look where I stand. To the ground. ‘Grounding’. Getting back in touch with life and reality. That’s what I’m here to do. Restore contact. Slowly, very slowly, I am gaining new perspectives on my life. But they are growing steadily. I struggle out of my fears and rediscover the possibilities that lie in every new twist. Possibilities that shape my change.
Gennaio 03, 2020